Post 42

Post 42

Back in the Ward from overnight leave and I don't feel too good I feel sick like I'm gonna Chuck.. 

Just was at Kimberley's after being at Doug's joint haveing some Turk's spent the rest of the day at home had about two synth ducks fucked me up proberly a contributor to why I feel crook. 

My parents are away for two weeks and I hope I locked the house up I'm a ducking idiot if I didn't! 

I don't feel too well so I'm gonna leave it there.

P.S. I tryed to contact Sarah just before because I miss her she was a big part of my life I still love her deep down.

Alright signing out DAN D

Post 41 - Anxiety Thursday

Heya
So I get anxiety today at 5:29pm because didn't know where my next smoke is coming from that and I consumed 2,920ml of green V which is almost six times the recommended limit fuck was I fucked that is until I got hold of my ex my friend for life Kimberley who helped me with some ciggys and also one of her personal apoes thank god for her thank u Kimberley u are a god send.  Then when I got back in the ward I had my night meds and prn of zyprexa which that and crossed legged on the bed assisted to me feeling now..  ok..  anyway thought I'd post today that I had anxiety for the first time since last injection the 21st and 22nd I think may be wrong though though it has been two weeks since I had anxiety it's the depot mixing with the v I suspect just hope it's not gonna happen again anytime soon. I must make sure I had constant supply of cigarettes and cut back on the V intake I'm getting fat Az. Anyway enough of that I have a meeting soon for my family and to setup a discharge plan which better mean I'm out soon it's already been 4months don't want it being six/halfayear! Admitted on the 3rd of December 2015 still her today 7th of April 2016 it's been too long I want out already anyway have a good one reader tomorrow is a new day god bless

Ehhhh ketchyah
DANDE

Post 40

Here I am bored shitless and no one is picking up their phones fuck this is annoying at least I don't have anxiety at all since last Tuesday!  That's a win for me!  Dande!