Post 44
Here I am after 7 days after last using illicits.. I tried my best tho which ive been calling anxiety and nervousa is really proberly shard withdrawal or side effect that renders a ex user fucked and retarded as like when u don't know if to shit or piss sit or stand move forward or backward or sideways, literally all u can do ive found is lay on ur bed in fewtal position praying for the feeling to stop its like pain with no source or wound or point of pain creation ... I meditated and came to knowledge its a swelled bubble like section in a brain vain that when aggregated or if fear sets in or worry the stretched wall of the brain vain vessel pulseates and send warning signals all over the nervous system which gives the sensation of öh fuck I'm gonna die, something really bads gonna happen.." tho I have found a way to stop it sometimes and that's to opt for an olanzapine apo and valium tho the most important thing u need to reduce the fucked feeling is to have ur feet tickled by a girl (coz I'm a sexist male!) and about twenty plus minutes of feet tickling does alleviate the horrible sensation the anxiety which I call.. its the only way to stop the feeling other than using shard which recalibrates me and stops the bad feeling so I'm in a fucked position, agree?!
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