Wednesday, 29 August 2018
46 and 2 meaning this is one 46th post and the 2nd the 2 is the 45th_POST_ me Daniel d a tool though unless in public and at the station or skatepark back in 2007 and 08 not a toolie that I would now be fool to be given I'm now over thirty. TOOL that 10,000 days I had supersititon that I only live for 20,440 days or something due to the hindu blue 2044 and 1987 reiteration of history and mystory I haven't told you yet all of it as I'm here and got GOD knows how long to live. I GOTTA REWRITE THIS DEBT CONSTRUCT ASAP ASTAT sorry all yous ive betrayed? or transgressed and that. 3:58pm 30th of AUGUST 2018
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here I am at Bayswater library I'm thinking ill see iv this copy and paste from my facebook before that I sent to my emails and parents I thinks email. ill paste after this typing string here it is the thougths I had after doing a paintfile for facebook today here at Bayswater library THUTRSDAY 30th of AUGUST 2018
ALSO I DID JUST THINK OF THE EXGIRFRIEND THAT GOT ME ONTO THIS BLOGGER BACK IN LATE 2015 or early 2016 Miss Tirant whomb I owe ten dollars and a fortnightly one cent direct credit to her bank account for chooseing to invest in me and danbanK
anyhow here is the copy pasted 341lines on notepad file facebook post content from near 2:25pm 30th of AUGUST 2018
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Saturday, 1 October 2016
Post 44
Here I am after 7 days after last using illicits.. I tried my best tho which ive been calling anxiety and nervousa is really proberly shard withdrawal or side effect that renders a ex user fucked and retarded as like when u don't know if to shit or piss sit or stand move forward or backward or sideways, literally all u can do ive found is lay on ur bed in fewtal position praying for the feeling to stop its like pain with no source or wound or point of pain creation ... I meditated and came to knowledge its a swelled bubble like section in a brain vain that when aggregated or if fear sets in or worry the stretched wall of the brain vain vessel pulseates and send warning signals all over the nervous system which gives the sensation of öh fuck I'm gonna die, something really bads gonna happen.." tho I have found a way to stop it sometimes and that's to opt for an olanzapine apo and valium tho the most important thing u need to reduce the fucked feeling is to have ur feet tickled by a girl (coz I'm a sexist male!) and about twenty plus minutes of feet tickling does alleviate the horrible sensation the anxiety which I call.. its the only way to stop the feeling other than using shard which recalibrates me and stops the bad feeling so I'm in a fucked position, agree?!
Post 44 Part 2
Wednesday, 11 May 2016
Post 43
Here I am I was told I'll be out soon tho now it's gonna be at least another week. This Friday I meet MST worker and then Wednesday 18th of May 2016 is the family meeting where I'll be told an exact discharge date which could be that week or the next. I have a mates 30th birthday on Saturday though I'm not sure if I'll be let out for the night to visit and attend I hope I'm allowed though it's a close friend and or rival competitor in the bizo game not really as such. Anyway I'm waiting for overnight leave again I just want to get out of this place it's been too long. My new case worker is called Phillipa so I wonder if I've met her before or if she's completely new. Kimberley is overseas at the moment I will be out by the time she gets back. I hope she's ok and nothing's wrong. I am still in secu may 3rd was five months and today it's been an extra week and a day. I need leave for Saturday night and also that morning. Sat and Sunday is all I need tho I'd want Saturday to Tuesday which would be better, like it would happen tho. Though I will attempt to ask tomoz.
Also I need to go threw all my boxes and find which I'll keep and which I'll sell I don't know which I'll separate accordingly. I'm listening to I won't let u down by hilltop hoods good song. Reminds me of Sarah my ex baby wonder if I'll ever see her again. I hope she has a good life free of problems she was the best girlfriend when I was with her. I love u still Sarah Joan Davis-Robinson!
Peace Out!
Dande 'n on g
Saturday, 16 April 2016
Post 42
Post 42
Back in the Ward from overnight leave and I don't feel too good I feel sick like I'm gonna Chuck..
Just was at Kimberley's after being at Doug's joint haveing some Turk's spent the rest of the day at home had about two synth ducks fucked me up proberly a contributor to why I feel crook.
My parents are away for two weeks and I hope I locked the house up I'm a ducking idiot if I didn't!
I don't feel too well so I'm gonna leave it there.
P.S. I tryed to contact Sarah just before because I miss her she was a big part of my life I still love her deep down.
Alright signing out DAN D
Thursday, 7 April 2016
Post 41 - Anxiety Thursday
Heya
So I get anxiety today at 5:29pm because didn't know where my next smoke is coming from that and I consumed 2,920ml of green V which is almost six times the recommended limit fuck was I fucked that is until I got hold of my ex my friend for life Kimberley who helped me with some ciggys and also one of her personal apoes thank god for her thank u Kimberley u are a god send. Then when I got back in the ward I had my night meds and prn of zyprexa which that and crossed legged on the bed assisted to me feeling now.. ok.. anyway thought I'd post today that I had anxiety for the first time since last injection the 21st and 22nd I think may be wrong though though it has been two weeks since I had anxiety it's the depot mixing with the v I suspect just hope it's not gonna happen again anytime soon. I must make sure I had constant supply of cigarettes and cut back on the V intake I'm getting fat Az. Anyway enough of that I have a meeting soon for my family and to setup a discharge plan which better mean I'm out soon it's already been 4months don't want it being six/halfayear! Admitted on the 3rd of December 2015 still her today 7th of April 2016 it's been too long I want out already anyway have a good one reader tomorrow is a new day god bless
Ehhhh ketchyah
DANDE
Saturday, 2 April 2016
Post 40
Here I am bored shitless and no one is picking up their phones fuck this is annoying at least I don't have anxiety at all since last Tuesday! That's a win for me! Dande!