Post 36
Today is Valentines Day and I had a Valentine for the first part of the day! She was a girl named Kimberley who I have already wrote about on this blog though at the end of the date we agreed to stop seeing each other for we are too different in our expectations and ideals we hold for who the partner should behave or act. This came easy though as the day progressed it became more hurtful as the day went on. She went and chilled with another male and I was left scrolling facebook looking for someone to share the day with though there was nobody. I was alone. I am alone. Well Shit could be worse I could be an amputee or a junkie. So I have to look on the bright side of things the sun is still shining and I have one break left to do what ever I want within the confinement of the Dandenong Cleeland St Precinct. I hope life gets better soon. I just don't want the bad emotions to take hold of my being. I want a girlfriend soon. I can not wait around and let my times be passed. I need someone who will look up to me and admire me that much that I am their exclusive because for the last relationship I was not the only boy she was seeing even if I was the only sexual partner she had I could not handle the frequency she had of seeing other males especially when she would go out at night with them. I want a girlfriend that is mine only and not shared with anyone else. This maybe hard to find in this day and age. I hope I find one though. Kim you meant the world to me and now I must revolve around other things like back to daily V drinks and maybe $6.90 pizza and drink deals!
Life is hard though secu makes it harder I want free time though it is gobbled up by staying here in this place not to mention the finance it gobbles up ($670.04c per fortnight!) I hope I am out of here soon. I have a list of things I could be doing with my time and also excuses to get more leave which is good. Lucky I brainstormed the other night ;) anyway life is swell when you are a human obeying GOD's LAW.
I am going to finish up with an ehhh keytchyah and Glad I metchyah Kimberley and other out there because you made my life worth living thank you. AND thank you to my family who have been somewhat supportive during this whole process of trying to reconfigure my life and brain and behavior. SECU is a Shit Environment Can't Use
Peace Out !
DANDE
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