Post 9

Here I am at SECU, I just got back from chilling at my new girlfriends house and I was talking to her dad about woodworking, he was showing me a product guide of all the machinery and tools that are for sale in the catalogue, they are very expensive though I guess they would, if in the right hands, could make wonderful wood products or things. I was asking him if he could make a treasure chest and he said he hasn't attempted to make one yet so I am thinking of drawing up some plans and giving them to him so he could make one or two for my treasures I have. Kim was good this morning she was going to make me coffee though I had a V instead. I also bought them milk from the milkbar wasn't too much of a price to pay to get brownie points with their family. I also got back just in time for morning meeting and got my name down for the groups for the day. I keep being late in from morning smokeo only because I go to Kim's house and chill there and not leave till its time to go inside. I need to ask for extended leave and hopefully I am granted it because I love spending time with Kim she is the girl I have been needing in my life. I love her if it is possible to say such things after so short of a time knowing her. I love spending my time with her anyway.

I hope today is good I have gym soon at 10am and that will be tiring though I have to do it to get fit or fitter. I hope I can do the treadmill and maybe the bike for the time I just want to make the time fly by so I can meet back up with my honey Kim.

I have to be at this SECU for a while it is a rehab in a way though it is just like hospital I have been on the new meds now for two doses (two morning doses) I have had to take a half pill both this morning and yesterday morning. I hope it works well with me and my thinking.

I might wind it up there though today should be a good day I am thinking of going to office works with Kim on my break hopefully we make it there and back in time.

Anyway that is all for now I will write more later on in this diary journal from the inside a Psych Ward Facility aka SECU (Secured Extended Care Unit)

ehhhh ketchyahszzz

Dan D

Post 8

Here is a French song you all should listen to on youtube it is pretty cool can not translate it though it sounds good when it gets into it, the artist and song name are as follows:

Keny Arkana - Cinquieme Soleil

Check it out listen to it all!!!!

It is a song that my girlfriend introduced me too, I think it sounds pretty cool!!!!! ehhh ketchyahszzz!

Post 7

This is a better public relations post regarding my girlfriend KVT. I want to state she is a good person and honorable to her word and she is to be believed in that she will reach her goals and attain recognition for her works and ideas that she has nice enough to have let me in on. I want to say even though I feared that she was disloyal I want to take that back for it borderlines with slander and she deserves more respect. I am sorry Kim I didn't mean to disappoint you writing this blog I wanted you to be happy or at least informed about my feelings and thoughts. For all I know it is just my paranoia though its just you are so sexy it seems impossible that other men won't find you attractive. I hope I have made the right decision in being your partner and that we are good for each other just I want to rid myself of all doubt because you are a lovely wombman and you are a great friend of mine that has quadfolded my recovery rate and prevented me from relapse even though some would argue you may cause a relapse. I believe you are a positive influence on me and that without I would find the days mundane and boring as, thank you for making the time to see me on basically all my breaks/ smokeo's, I really appriecate your efforts you have made to be my girlfriend I am a very lucky man to have a lady like you at my side. I am sorry for the past thoughts of adultery and fear of cheating on me, in all honesty it is not my business who you develop inimate relationships with even though I would like to know, in reality it is ultimately up to you and you will fill me in if there was anything to worry about. I am sorry if the past posts seemed to put you in a bad light that was not my intention. I was just expressing my concerns of our new relationship that is still in its formative stage. I hope this post makes you feel better and I hope that you accept my apology in that you are a gift from GOD and nothing lesser....

I love spending time with you Kim and ever since Sarah left me in August 2015 I am glad that I have been lucky enough to spend time with such a wonderful lady girl wombman...

ily Kimberley

love from Dan Dawson

Post 6

I got a call from my ex today saying how money had been taken out of her account and that she didn't authorize the transaction so in other words she thought she was hacked. I explained to her it will be due to the personal loan she took out when she was low on funds and wanted to buy a new car after the fact she still owed me more than the new car is worth. And also sold the car I bought with my money so I go ripped bad. Anyway I just wanted to say if someone asks for my advice or help and I clearly define what needs to be done fucken do it don't winge that your broke and can not afford anything because you can and you are able to set your finances under control just may take a sitchuational change needing to be made. New cars what a waste of money!

I owed by so many people it is unfunny. They all have dishonoured their debts except a small handful. I just hope my ex pulls her head in and listens to me on what to do next to save her circumstances.

Also my current girlfriend well I am pretty sure shes my girlfriend even tho shes spending time getting on the shit and chilling with another guy, which makes me uncomphortable though there is nothing I can do about it except pray she will be there for me when I need her.

Girls why do you pluck my heart strings and make me distressed?!

Post 5


Here I am at SECU in the computer labs writing about what has been happening so far and that is that they the mental health service have put me on a new medication called Lurazadone or something to that spelling. I felt a bit weird afterwards after taking it only a half tablet tho it was in the morning and I bet now I have to take interval medications morning, afternoon and night. It is bullshit, why do I have to have a medication for being a person with different opinions. I guess I just have to go with it and see if it actually helps me instead of making me feel like shit.


Also what has happened today is that I saw Kim in the morning just before I came back in from smoke break I want to see the doctor so I get granted hour leaves at least a few times a week. Tho I will have to wait and see. I hope I am able to get these ANZ shares at the price I have bided them at which is $27.55 each I hope I get them as it would make me feel better that I have a portfolio with 205 ANZ share which is substantial if I get a 95c dividend I will receive a total of $194.75c credited to my bank account I need a dividend of 98c to make $200.90c which is what I hope for when next dividend comes around in six months.


Kim is a wonderful girl and even though she worries me with using ice and cheating I hope she has good intentions at heart. I like her a lot and do not want to loose her over bullshit.
Kim you are a gorgeous young lady and I enjoy spending time with you, it is always fun!


What else, I have been looking on realestate.com.au and finding no properties that are worth buying within my budget of $6,111.00 which I have saved in my bank account for a FHSA ( First Home Saver Account ). I want to make something of myself and I will eventually just got to take it one day at a time. Hopefully I get to see Kim at 1230pm - 1pm break/ smokeo.
I am happy that I have got some more treasure though I need to write up a site which shows all the items I have for sale. Just need time to make it up, sorry write it up the webpage that is... .


Conclusion is that Kim is a good girl with similar aspirations and dreams like me. Just I hope the criminals she is associated with don't lead her down the wrong path. Babe I am trying to pull you out of darkness not draw you back into it!!!
Also I feel I need my parents to get solar panels built onto the roof of the house because it will save cash every electricity bill. Who cares if they look ugly they look fine and the roof wont be that damaged by them also need to set up some wind turbines so to generate electricity from them would be good. Anyway life is good somewhat and it can only get better.
Peace Out
Till next time averideci ehhh ketchyahszzz 

Here I am in SECU and I have the sense that I have fallen for a girl that won't disband her past life. I worry for her and am worried that the drug ice will get in the way of us being a good couple. I worry that she does not see that her actions of seeing other males effects me and it does she is my wish, it is just I hope I don't come second to her in choosing a pathway to success. I hope that she has my feelings at heart and does not betray me in any way. Anyway, she has seen other men whilst I have been locked up I just hope I can believe her and that she is being loyal to me and that she is not sleeping around. I just worry for she is sexy and I have a feeling is a sex maniac aka a nympho. Tho what can I do - nothing. I don't want to get in the way of her having fun and enjoying herself I just am hurt that I was not enough to be the only man in her life. I just wonder if she is telling me the truth and that she is not sleeping around tho if she is my bad luck I made a poor choice, in believing in someone that is disloyal. I hope to GOD that she is just mine and only mine tho I think I am asking too much. She has slept with countless men and at least I have counted my courtships, she is my world I just think I will loose her for not being strong in faith. I want to believe that she is honest and that she tells me the truth tho ice (shardheads) are a dangerous bunch and are not to be trusted even tho I trust that she is there for me and will always be there or here for me if I really need her help. She is one of my supports that keep me going day by day, it is just this ice use will consume her if she does not stop use now. I fear I will loose her to her using and not thinking straight as in come straight home I've already been hurt by her when she went on a joyride to visit someone in jail. So the initial damage has been done to my trust just I believe that she needs support and someone to care for her just I think if she continues to see other men then I'm going to look elsewhere for a life partner for I can not deal with the emotion that is caused when I learn that she spends time with other men. I hope that I will believe her and that I have nothing to worry about tho I see how ice affects a human and also how it renders them vulnerable to being played. Kim if you are reading this I hope you understand that I am here for you and I do love you I care about you I do not want to see you lost to the drugs eg ice the dope is manageable tho I fear you will not be there for me 100% if you are using and seeing other men/boys. I fear too much and I hope that this fear subsides tho I worry I succumb to the lies of the adultery if that is that it is taking place. I want to believe that it is not happening tho I am extremely paranoid without the fact being that you are chilling with them. I still love you Kimberley just I am scared that you will be like me and adulterate when high on gear. It is a fact you get horny when you partake in drug use I just hope you are strong willed and that you won't cheat me of a deserving wife which you are when you are straight and clean off drugs. I can not tell you what to do and I can not force you to do anything I can only hope that you will be there for me when I need you like today at 4pm tho I may be asking too much if that is not what you want to do. I pray that you find your feet girl and that you defeat the drug demons in your presence though my fear is strong and strong for reason. I just hope light can guide me and you to a pretty picture and also that of a good life. I am yours still just know I worry and and worried for you and your safety. I do not want you getting a disease or bad temperament I love you Kim and I want to be by your side. You just worry me girl a lot and only you can change your ways to stop that worry or I have to retreat which I do not want to do for time with you is pleasant and fun always and I do not want to loose you to these other men and drugs you ingest. I have fitness exercise group in 27mins so I best be winding this up though I will conclude with I love you Kim and I love all the girls that have touched my soul though I am giving my loyalties to only you Kim I will not hook up with another person whilst I am seeing you to save your heart being broken for you saved me from darkness when I got your msg. You just messaged then, I just replied saying I am doing a journal blog so I am fully honest with you Kim I hope you are the same in return I am pretty sure you are my baby just plz don't hurt me via above stated I love you Kim and I think I always will now that I have known you and been in union with you, I just scared of loosing you. Sorry if this post disinterests you though it is how I am feeling at the present time and is a direct feed of my thoughts and feelings as of this point in time.

ily ehhh ketchyahsszz    

Post 3 - 4/1/2016


Here I am back from morning coffee and V with Kimberley ( my new girlfriend ). I have little money left and am almost broke I am going to need some more supplies bought in from someone on the outside or have some debt paid back so I can purchase the supplies myself, basically I am running out of cigarettes and need to reload. I hope that someone can help me help myself and deliver what is needed. Also Kim has a lot of unpaid liabilities and debts that need consolidating so they don't get more expensive. I can help her organize her finances tho she needs to be honest about what is overdue and what is outstanding, such as eastlink etag stuff and cashies etc...
I hope I can get her out of debt and get her to start saving her money so she has some to spend on whats needed for her and so she can be my "Miss Independent". I need to get a list of everything outstanding and overdue and to be due soon or later basically a full financial breakdown of all out going monies is needed to do a successful budget. I am skilled in money matters although not that good at saving money I have only managed to save a little bit since I am now in SECU ( Secured Extended Care Unit ) which is a facility rehab for the mentally ill, the only problem is that sometimes some people end up staying here for years not just months which they first advertised the place to be. This scares me as I wonder will I ever be good enough to leave this hell hole!!


Winding it up all I can suggest the reader to do is to get a detailed list of all the money matters that are associated with thyself and make it formal presentable so that a budgeter can assess their financial position. I am available for doing such budgets for anyone who is interested in correcting their financial position. I am currently waiting on a five grand transfer to appear in my bank account so that I am able to purchase a large quantity of bank shares namely ANZ as they have dipped to a all time low and I need to snatch them up before the market recovers to its higher position. Praise GOD almighty for being so accurate in all his/her works and fatetizm, that is how accurate and precise fate / destiny pans out and lines up stuff for the individual to experience. I thank Kim for being there for me during my hospital stay and also GOD for connecting me with such a strong woman. I love you babe!


Also I have to footnote that I am also happy for my relationships I have had in the past and in particular the relationship I had with Sarah. Even though we are not together any more she still keeps in contact to touch base and see how I am going as I also see how she is. I am sorry to hear she runs into financial hardship at times though I need her to restructure her finances so that she too can be an independent person and not rely on me to bail her out all the time, she should be able to fix her life she just needs some encouragement and guidance which I can only provide somewhat. Sarah if your reading this and Kim you too if your reading this know this that I am now in union with KVT and my ex is officially SJDR both women I care about deeply though for all intents and purposes I am now "with" Kimberley.V.T... and Sarah we were an item though I have to move forward and start a new life with Kim as still you have insisted that we are not to get back together. If I didn't have a wonderful girl like Kimberley at my side at my front I would be finding this time in SECU very hard to deal with as it at times can be very lonely, thank GOD for allocating me with such wonderful females well female, KVT.


SJDR I have not forgotten you and you still are in my heart though understand I am moving on now and have to put Kim ( KVT ) first and foremost after myself as No.1
I will still be there for you Sarah anytime you call or need assistance if I am physically able to heklp I will I will not completely abandon you ok my ex O.
And to my new O, 
I adore you and am very grateful you are now in my life as it makes the days fly by and soon I'll be out of this hell hole anyway I got to go because the morning meeting is on and I must attend it, so averadeci ehhhh ketchyah glad I metchyahs both I can't wait to see you both Kim and Sarah to make sure all is well. Just I am now with Kim not Sarah so this blog can be testimony that I have officially moved on. OK I gtg I have the meeting to attend I will write more later on in the day, just I got to go right now ok ehhhhh ketchyah!