Post 40

Here I am bored shitless and no one is picking up their phones fuck this is annoying at least I don't have anxiety at all since last Tuesday!  That's a win for me!  Dande!

Post 39

here i am bored secu is a shithole i donot want to be here anymore i want to go away from this place go back to my old area where its fun fuck u secu im done with u!

Post 38

Post 38

ive been listening to "brave little toaster - worthless" pritty nogalstic song catchy as, anyway im bored as in the ward might miss out on my next leave because i was late coming back from my hour leave. i miss Kim and i want to see Taylor soon just have to wait till shes ready. There was talks of discharge when i last spoke to the doctors so thats a good sign,and my parents said theyll take me back instead of renting. thats enough information for one post ill catch yous later! Averdeci ekhh ketchyahzz!! 

Post 37

Post 37 - Thinking about Speed

Here I am a Melbournian thinking about living in Speed northwest Victoria a fairwhile away I want to buy a house up there I will with the money I've saved and with help from a loan which I'll fully service meaning pay interest on!  I did the figures and relying on three people to continue paying their fortnightly interest I'll be able to live out in Speed and pay off the house!  It will be an interesting four years!  I want to purchase the house for one safeguard me against homelessness and also provide a means to recieve additional income.  I have good expectations of this venture I just need the 20k homeloan and for them to sell at 30k and also the additional funds needed to start up the colony.  I have high hopes of living it comphortably and owning my own home it is a opportunity not to be missed! I need my parents to agree and support my decision as it is the only way I see it happening I should be able to do it I've budgeted to smoke 40cigs a day and have a slab of coke a day and have nothing else except live off the rent of someone else boarding with me I can comphortably live out there if I do a legit manifestation of intellect.  Anyway here is the first post of my intention to move up to Speed. The house is a shanty though could prosper goodly. I have high hopes I'll say again and can't wait to finally own my own home!  Let's just wait and see which happens and that that does not. I can't wait!!!!!!!

Repeat I can't wait to be out of secu and in my own house!

Post 36 - Valentines Day 2016

Post 36

Today is Valentines Day and I had a Valentine for the first part of the day! She was a girl named Kimberley who I have already wrote about on this blog though at the end of the date we agreed to stop seeing each other for we are too different in our expectations and ideals we hold for who the partner should behave or act. This came easy though as the day progressed it became more hurtful as the day went on. She went and chilled with another male and I was left scrolling facebook looking for someone to share the day with though there was nobody. I was alone. I am alone. Well Shit could be worse I could be an amputee or a junkie. So I have to look on the bright side of things the sun is still shining and I have one break left to do what ever I want within the confinement of the Dandenong Cleeland St Precinct. I hope life gets better soon. I just don't want the bad emotions to take hold of my being. I want a girlfriend soon. I can not wait around and let my times be passed. I need someone who will look up to me and admire me that much that I am their exclusive because for the last relationship I was not the only boy she was seeing even if I was the only sexual partner she had I could not handle the frequency she had of seeing other males especially when she would go out at night with them. I want a girlfriend that is mine only and not shared with anyone else. This maybe hard to find in this day and age. I hope I find one though. Kim you meant the world to me and now I must revolve around other things like back to daily V drinks and maybe $6.90 pizza and drink deals!

Life is hard though secu makes it harder I want free time though it is gobbled up by staying here in this place not to mention the finance it gobbles up ($670.04c per fortnight!) I hope I am out of here soon. I have a list of things I could be doing with my time and also excuses to get more leave which is good. Lucky I brainstormed the other night ;) anyway life is swell when you are a human obeying GOD's LAW.

I am going to finish up with an ehhh keytchyah and Glad I metchyah Kimberley and other out there because you made my life worth living thank you. AND thank you to my family who have been somewhat supportive during this whole process of trying to reconfigure my life and brain and behavior. SECU is a Shit Environment Can't Use

Peace Out !

DANDE

Post 35

Post 35

Here is the next post I've done since the last one. I have been doing not much stuff though I ask you the reader is there anything for me to do in Melbourne or in Dandenong that would fill in my time or grant me more leaves. I have only a few things that I can think of that I can do that are legitimate.

Here is a list of things that I have come up with that I can ask for more leave for:

* Library Leave = Has already been granted once per week for up to 2 hours once per week!

* Pool Leave = Haven't asked yet though has been suggested by the treating team consultants!

* Movie Leave = I have to ask if I can go out on this leave once a week though will cost $10 a movie!

* Course Leave = I will have to enroll into a course first, though I am thinking of doing "YEAR 13"!

* Market Leave = I am thinking of setting up a market stall at Dandenong Market or at the Caribbean.

* Plaza Leave = This I don't know if it will count as I already am asking for Movie Leave at the Plaza

* Walking Leave = This is something I just thought up then which could grant me an hour of leave!

* Games Workshop Leave = This is something dug up from my past it's a store at Eastland Ringwood

* Trainride/Trainsurfing Leave = This is something I do when I am free or experience freedom in life

* Volunteering Leave = This is a maybe would do, maybe at Ferntree Gully Salvo's OpShop-a might!

* Work Leave = If I managed to get a job I would ask for leave to be able to participate in work/a job.

* Freedom Leave = Just a blank leave to leave up to me how I spend my time out side the ward/secu!!

THat is all I can think of at the moment though I will think of more later hopefully though I don't know if I can I've brainstormed those in the past 20minutes I have been sitting at this computer! I hope I can get extra leave granted by next meeting and then I will have boosted morale which is not that high at the moment due to imprisonment on the ward. I do get the 4 smokeos a day and an extra one hour freedom leave a day as well as overnight leave once per week which is good as well as the 2hr per week Library Leave which I have already used this week on the Thursday I think. Anyway, reader I hope this has been insightful for you to read about my life and current position and situation just I hope that this SECU stay is not a long one it will be 3 months as of March 3rd as I have been locked up in here since December 3rd 2015.

Not much more to write just have a nice day and night and I hope to be free asap as soon as poss!

Averdeci Ehhhhh Ketchyah!!!

DANDE

9:56am

13/2/2016

Post 34

How a boring day what is there to do with all my time who is there to see and there has to be something to fill my time I am bored so much and without seeing my girlfriend I am lost.  I wonder if there is anything that this world can offer to erase ones boredom. I need something to do I am left to my own devices and are bored shitless. There is nothing one can do without money except loiter or go for walks or run or swim in the bay or ocean or park facility.  I can not seem to find anything that pleases me and that could be defined as a hobby I'm helpless.

Help me help myself -- is my quote

How can this misery be stopped how can I save my soul. Is it true I've sold my sole soul for gifts of chaos?  Jesus I am mad to think Warhammer games workshop religion actually exists in this dominion of earth and dimension of reality.  I can't use the word what though I had too unfortuately at the start of the post shame on me.  There are some pritty girls that venture past the hospital I find though I have a girlfriend and it is sin to want their body's and to consumate with such vessels, while I already have a sexual and emotional binding partner.  I went to see her before just near 11 and she told me to go away because she was sleeping.  I doubt she wants to face today because it is today she offically lost her licence so I can understand why she wants to continue to sleep.  I guess she doesn't want me that much or is not ready for a relationship,  I wonder also how am I going to make her valentines day speshill?  And also will we make it to Valentines Day as a couple as I feel someone else needs me or it is I need them though someone unforseen is in the loading stage of my dreamlike reality I wonder who it could be??

That seems enough from me today I'll write more another day though I hope the reader is content with this content for readership.  Anyway Averdeci ehhhhhhhh Ketchyahszzz