Post 17
Here I am thinking about getting a shed for my parents place so I can store all my belongings in it. It would only cost around half a grand to purchase just would have to lay foundations and get it fixed to the ground so it does not collapse. I hope my Dad will agree to it being constructed, I need his permission first before I purchase anything from Masters or off eBay or from Bunnings or Mitre10. I want to get one soon so I can put my belongings in it and have them safely secured. I need to go threw all my stuff and put all the electronic stuff in one container to take up to Paul's so I can build a robot or appliance that hasn't been made yet. I like to reuse and recycle stuff it is in my nature. I am a Cancerian Horder, so I horde and I am sensitive to people pillaging or removing my belongings, I suffer Financial Violence on the regular! It depresses me the throwing out of my stuff others consider junk/trash/rubbish/waste/etc... I hope my parents read this and decide nhot to throw out any of my belongings I throw rubbish out and there is no real rubbish in my room ever everything has a use and a purpose for being in there and they have no rite to throw out my stuff because I treasure the stuff they call rubbish/trash, I mean for fucks sake, it is not like I was keeping faeces in bags was I, though the thought crossed my mind when I had cats, just joking!!!! Anyway I am still needing to consolidate my belongings and get them all organized ready for sale soon with Kimberley's help via the internet or via a market stall either ither it will need more consideration and capital to make it happen!!!!
Life it is sweet though at the same time it can be sooo shit!!
I hope the reader is entertained with my posts whilst I am free of drugs and only on the V and cigarettes which I can not smoke between 6pm and 9am in the morning so I do exactly 15 hours of smoke free time each day which you would think makes me cut down though it just makes me chafe down ciggies even more so because I can not have one when I need one so the practice is bullshit!!!!
SECU is a psych facility which I am presently rehabbing in and I want to get out of here asap though I can't until either the tribunal or a psychiatrist releases me into the real world either free of restraint or release on conditions such as being on a CTO (A Community Treatment Order) which just means I have to be medicated still and have to attend Psych Appointments setup by my treating team... FUCK I HATE YOU JAZ U BITCH! I had to yell that out for she is the reason I am stuck in this rehab psych facility with no knowing of how long I have to go staying here or ability to spend nights with my new girlfriend, that is literally the only plus for being here in such a place is that I met my new girlfriend out on the street one of my LEAVES yes I didn't met here in the facility I met her outside in her local neighbourhood. I can not wait till I am discharged though I feel they will keep me in here for as long as they can so I could be here till my 29th Birthday in June on the 23rd when the next tribunal hearing is.... I fucking hate this place, it is not too bad the people are all ok just the setup of being locked in for 15 hours of the day and also for the other 9 hours I only have half an hour breaks every 3 hours of detainment. It is absolute bullshit!!!! Lucky I have the two x one hour leaves a week to allow me to get out more frequent.. Though its not allowed everyday which I find is bullshit! The only thing that is good about the program is really the fitness group lead by Jude, a nice Sri Lankian that motivates me to do the gym and go out on walking group around the block which the route varies each time so it is not too boring. And also I would say that the Psychologist meeting are not too bad they are alright though still it is making me stay here longer if I do not prose myself proper. Also I would give some credit of an alright time to Recardo, Taylor and Jessica for being helpful with outings such as the movies ONCE and for undergoing the Money Matters Group. A thank you to all the staff here all which are good 90% of the time that 10% is when they take their job too seriously and detriment my fun times such as leave, it is good when they let me out for daily leaves as it makes my day go better and I feel not so much a prisoner and inmate to a facility of government persecution on us nuJJ3Ws us unW3LLs aka mentally ill patients, Fuck I Hate You Jaz for setting this up I fucking hate your guts and am going to kill all your flowers NO FLOWERS for JAZ not yet anyway I want someone to key her private car or do something that teaches her a lesson on interfering with ones life, the only way I will forgive you is if this is a shorten then expected stay and I am free of imprisonment and incarceration!!!! I do not usually hate anyone though my old case manger fuck was a bitch she had square toes as well so she by Rolh Dalhs definition was a true witch. Just consider yourself your lucky as I did met my new girlfriend because of this stay in lockup, just it is shit because I can not be with her 24/7 which maybe my girlfriend wouldn't want anyway, maybe not so though it at least gives her space to do her own shit and live her own life free of me.. . I want to end this rant with a solid ehhh ketchyahs glad I metchyahsz - Kim, Kimberley and all the inmates at SECU and nurses and doctors I've met here at SECU you are not all that bad and I hope I learn more about myself by living in this fucked up scenario... .
Anyway gtg ill finish the rant here.\
Ehh Ketchyahszz
DANDE
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