Post 26

Here I am and I am writing the Post 26.

Post 26 I wonder how many readers there are on this blog, I had a spike in page visits by other people whom I still don't know who is viewing my blog all the data I get is numbers of page visits not individual IP addresses or names of visitors.

Kim came in and chilled with me during visiting hours the 430-530 slot and I am hopefully chilling with her for my last smoke break today tonight. I have to say I am very pleased with Kim when she goes out of her comphort zone and comes chills with me. I also went on a second leave today and visited Kim's friend Allan whom I played chess against and won 2:0 so that was a good set by me very close games he is a good chess player a challenge which was mentally stimulating. I have to play him again to see if he can beat me at chess. Apparently he hadn't played in seven years, full on.

Anyway now I relies that no human on the gear can put another human being before their use I couldn't do it for Sarah and I think my girlfriend can not do it for me. It would be nice if we couldn't get enough of each other though the reality is undefined for my girlfriend says she loves me and cares about and I believe though she can't turn down an invite to get on the shit which breaks my heart the one that is not in my chest anymore. I guess I can not do anything about it because the gear is too powerful for those with mental illness.

I am still going to abstain from drug use even though I feel I want to use because life is shit off drugs if you do not have someone u like loving you. It sounds more depressing than it really is though maybe it is actually more depressing then it sounds just because I am so strong now emotionally because I have been hurt and scared in ways not all civilians endure. I am not weak at the moment I am strong only because I was shown a love that was pure and not toxic though even if it comes and goes. I am scared for my girlfriend because she is right when she says trippy shit though I can see from the people that are threatened by such talks and are afraid that she could get flagged and persecuted, for being a nu JJeW an unwell. I should wrap it up there because I need to eat dinner. So till next time Averideci,

EHHHHHH KETCH YAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DANDE